I'm calling time on this move to Yeovil. As soon as I can arrange it, I'm leaving this place behind. My reasons are intensely personal.
As anticipated, I failed in my attempt to be "just friends" with that girl. Unfortunately, things between us ended with me saying some terrible and unforgivable things. Truthfully, it would have been better for both of us if we'd never met.
I have become the very thing I most feared I would become. I am a wretched waste of human life. It would be better had I never been born. Worryingly, I am now considering drastic measures, something I've not done since high school. It is time for me to leave this place. Even if that means returning to having no job.
